Not really a baby anymore

We wanted her to come for so long. We tried for years, and I cried everytime the test was negative. Then miraculously, that awesome day in July 2010... the test was positive. I was so scared it wouldn't work out again....but she was meant to be ours.

 

 

Today little Savvy went pee-pee on the potty for the first time ever. Good lob lady!! Of course we were excited for the milestone, but I found a part of me was sad. How could she be big enough already?! She really isn't a baby anymore...she is a toddler, and that is very different. She still needs me when she is scared, and sleeps with her special blanket. She still eats baby food (primarily because she hates strange/unfamiliar textures). She makes messes and cries when she is tired. She still takes naps, and sleeps in a crib, and wears diapers. But, next month she will turn 2 years old. She will transition into a toddler bed and continue to learn how to be a big girl. I already miss the baby.

 

 I have been through this stage twice already, but this time is different. It is likely my last time through. I would love to have more children, but the years are not slowing down. IVF is the only option now. If I had an extra 10 thousand lying around I would do it tomorrow. Alas...our insurance now doesn't hold a candle to what we had in Residency. Student loan debt and an unsold house in Iowa eat up any extra. Sad but true. Yet I am so grateful to be where we are. Finished with training, back home (albeit in a temporary place still), and parents of 3 wonderful little people. Hubby is so happy with his job that it has been worth the wait. I am looking forward to the next stage and next adventure...now to get me back on stage....